# Logs ## 2026-09-14 I read that, it made me laugh! "He didn’t analyze any ten-dimensional gauge theory or predict any chiral axigluons. He’s just an entrepreneur, i.e., a natural leader, a commodity which especially in our present dire straits is or at least ought to be worth a whole Bolivian prison full of cocaine-tooting particle physicists." The [mojeek](www.mojeek.com) search engine is just so much fun. I remembered what it was to be on internet. Find a good website once in a while, bookmark it and read it down to the bone. ## 2026-09-13 I am opting out. I blocked Youtube. There is nothing for me there. Some rage bait, some stuff I said 10 times I don't want to watch or even see. Now, I am not to much into "5 tips to get control of your Internet", but that makes me think of freedom a lot. I don't have fear, and especially FOMO is alien to me, meaning I can just brutally cut anything. But then something happens: Internet feels empty and I am bored. Internet is my main hobby or gateway to hobbies. Back to bookmarks, RSS, curation one site at a time, search engine with good biases but not best in towns. We are not back to internet, we are back to internet before Google, in worse. And yet, I feel that I will have a better time, one hour struggling to find something cool, rather than three being fed with ad sponsored content. ## 2026-09-12 Netflix annoyed me. The [result](?p=piracy.md). I am so concise, guys! ## 2026-09-11 I have downloaded Neuromancer and jacked in. What a time to be alive! ## 2026-09-09 I failed an interview. They said that I was not concise enough. Really? Anyway, here is [Babel](?p=babel.md). I have to buy the "five steps to efficient communication" book or something! ## 2026-09-08 So I have been doing interview, mostly in Japanese. I have meetings in English. Except that the guy who speaks English is late so we talk in Japanese. And the guy comes, and I want to switch back to English, and my mouth expells some Japanese anyway. So I have be writing about Babel. It's about towers and cheese, or something like that. ## 2026-09-07 A reason I have not talked too much about Neuromancer is that I have not read it for 20 years. In fact, "I want to become a millionaire... manager" or "Java Spring" aside, I have not read a book for 15 years, almost. So that's how Neuromancer starts: They sky above the port was the color of television, tuned to a dead channel. Got me some chill, I must admit. It is unimaginable that reading became so hard to me. I used to read almost one book a day for a few years. I mean I could even read books I don't like. Now I can't even read a book I like. But I'll try! You have to fail forward in life ## 2026-09-05 I wrote this piece, [I am seeking fun!](?p=fun.md). It is not about searching a job, but it is about a specific meaning of fun at work. What is the meaning of life in a digital world? I don't know! Today I learn a new word, ドパガキ。Dopagaki, the dopamine brats. That qualifies the youth. Fuck. ## 2026-09-01 I wrote something, [XXX](?p=xxx.md). I missed you! ## 2026-08-31 Still busy. But this one is cool. It's like Minecraft, the arcade game. Minecraft was fairly popular in Japan, so I think it is to sell based on the license. But arcade game, I can only imagine myself punching through stuff. I don't know, 10 minute playtime, what happens. Someone was sitting so I may never know. I played the House of the Dead anyway. ![Minecraft](logs/minecraft.jpg) ## 2026-08-26 I am quite busy searching for a job while working. Why did you apply? For money. Oh, no!! That's the truth we can't say. In fact, I have never been interested by money: I had enough, the normal IT job. Nothing fancy, like me. I don't even drink Starbucks coffees. - You know that if you don't drink Starbuck coffee, you can buy a Ferrari in 2 decades? - Well, where is your Ferrari, asshole? Inflation is truly crippling. It compounds fast, and it is unfair. Unfair because only money, in the form of better wages and investments, can fight it. So, inflation crushes the more popular classes, and that's just disgusting. I will take a week or so off the website. More money, better content! Yeah, no. ## 2026-08-20 Bored. I wrote [that](?p=left.md) btw. I have to talk about the hacking dolphin in the movie with Keanu Reeves, one day. 関係なく、どうしたら、この政治をとめられるのは、とても不安にたてられています。政党とか労働組合と回答にならぬ。 平和を守れ！くそやろう！ ## 2026-08-19 Tomorrow, I go to the office... leave me alone! That said, while I have these Thursdays, I also have a lot of Tuesdays, and even a few Wednesdays. One day I was going to the Wednesday's food truck, since I'm working from home. Bacon cheese Burger. American's finest. I love it. The meat is really home-made hamburger, it's like steak with a good air flow. And I was waiting. And a guy was on the phone and talking French. I felt kind of social that day and waited. So we live in the same building, we share the same passion for burgers, Paradox games (it's niche), and History (it's even more niche). The guy is from Tunisia, but he's about as Tunisian as I am French, if that makes sense. We talk politic while drinking beer. And every Wednesday we got get our burger. Today was a Wednesday. ## 2026-08-18 Well, I wrote about [fear](?p=fear.md). My fear. The one I haven't. I need to write about horror movies. The trash, the ugly, the classy. There was this guy, Takashi Miike. And he makes some weird stuff, really. One of his movies was like a killer who cut people with the ice skates on his feet, and he must kill a Yakuza boss. But the boss is masochist, and he wants to die. And then the pimp of the killer or something, the old dude, in fact he's a bodybuilder and he kicks everyone's ass. And then Miike made this horror movie. Audition. Serious stuff. I am not sure he even liked it. The movie is glacially normal, classic even. That hurt. ## 2026-08-17 I ran a spell check. 318 errors found. If it was code it would not compile. How did we get there? Ok, my English sucks, I was not attentive, I am sorry mistress, no please don't hurt me. Then there is this Japanese. Even in my native language, I lost this instant localization and hate of misspells. I am indifferent. One struck me: "Flowers for Algernon", and I wrote flower. And to me, that's the same. Flower is 花 and flowers is 花. I bought flowers is "I bought category:flower". I don't have the eye to find a missing plural after 15 years without plural. And I even lost "spelling". I mean that if I write Tokyo wrong, 東京 becomes 都居 or whatever, an entirely different word. Then there is this idea of fast typing markdown file directly, upload, don't look back. Super fast, productive, that helped me having something. But I don't even have a spell check in that. I don't know if people still care about spelling. I read that they can't read anyway. Wait who wrote that then? ## 2026-08-16 As I said, I went to the Mount Fuji. Over. Because I could not see it with the fog and clouds, and maybe 10,000 villagers vaping. Zero, you are on Mount Fuji itself and you still can't see it, the thing is silent hill on playstation. And yet it was cool. I don't really care about that stuff anyway. We were in a... I don't even know what the thing is, like the cabin in the wood. And my dog was looking at me like she'd say: what's that bullshit, boss? Let's go home. We're home, buddy! ## 2026-08-13 Summer vacations, one day! wow! I go to Mount Fuji. They said the internet reception is bad. Perfect. ## 2026-08-12 In about 40 years, there is one time, the only time my father told me something of value. This story. This is about a rich business man. Filthy rich, the guy. But not content. He wants to know the meaning of life. And so he assembles the finest team money can buy, philosophers, scientists, political scientists, and even worse. And they write, and they talk. But nothing comes out from that. Years pass, still nothing, and the money is largely gone. The guy is not just filthy rich, first because he's kind of broke now, and second because he's dead serious. So he travels. All over the world, old school. He hears stories, he moves, he talks with people, he learns. He feels like he is progressing toward something. But still nothing. Nothing at all! And obviously, he goes to Asia, because at some point you go for alternatives. So he goes. He meets famous people, he asks. No answer. And that continues. At that point, the man is basically homeless. He got his last money stolen. Met some nasty people. But he hears about something. A temple in Tibet. Here, the monk living alone knows about the meaning of life, he's told. And here he goes. And it is quite the trip, it takes him months. Diseases and all, but I'm writing that short for modern audiences. And the temple is on the top of a fucking mountain! And so he goes, the stairs. And so many times, he thinks about just letting go, it is pure pain and hate at that point. But he wants to know. One step, one step. The guy is slow as fuck, push dude, finish the story...! And he reaches the place, and the monk is here, and alive! And so, that's it. He asks. Your sanctity, please, I implore you, tell me what is the meaning of life? And the monk replies: Life is a long, calm river. And the man is disappointed. Because it's kind of a stupid answer. But the monk notices he is disappointed... so he asks: Did I say something stupid? ## 2026-08-08 Ah, enough!! I published the draft for the AI text. That's a lot of research. I think I have to publish something, anything, then iterate. That is the only text I feel I have a stake on. I really want people to have an understanding of what it really is. [A.I.](?p=ai.md) ## 2026-08-07 This Friday was five days in the making. I continue writing but I can't finish anything. ## 2026-08-06 I have to go to the office and meet them. I hope that nobody calls me for lunch and I can be alone. I have mostly been in places where lunch was the best part of the day. And just a few places where you would want a Predator kit. The camouflage, for a start. I think it matters. == Update [**Ok**] A voice behind: "You are going to lunch?". Fuck! "Yeah, I was going to the Chinese restaurant" "Oh, what about a pizza?" ## 2026-08-04 We were discussing having a drink in a group. Let's move back in time a little. ### 2004 So I was in an old city a friend lived in. I was squatting a bit. We had just graduated. So we call another friend. We say: Drink? He says yeah! One hour later, yeah because he had to drive. And we get drunk, hard drunk but fun drunk. So, we are the Ninja Turtles, the freaking TMNT. He's Donatello and I'm Michelangelo because I was cool back in the day. And we are pissing on the wall. 1000 years old wall, several kilometers. And I tell him. Donatello... come to Paris seriously, wtf this place? We go together as Ninja Turtles! And he said something like: yeah, you're right. ### 2010 There is a party I was really good at skipping. I played dead. To give a context, it is a costume party, with a theme like "the 50's". I don't do that, there is too much freedom in me. It was a "friend" in Paris. I did not feel friend enough. So, that's the big night, and I have a movie starting, a literal divx. And I get a call. Donatello. You come to the party? He says. Yeah, no, I played dead man. So he says "man, you have to come, I'd be alone. And I told him, play dead, or die irl, I don't know. And then he said: I ask as a Ninja Turtle. So we went to the costume party without a costume. That fucking asshole. ### 2025 I am telling the story to another friend in Tokyo. And he got it. He was playing dead for a party I had stupidly accepted. So he asked me: You are pulling a Ninja Turtle on me? And I told him, I know we don't have a formal Ninja Turtle pact but... So we went to the party. I was the asshole. ### Tonight That's the same group. I accepted. FUCK! But there are untold rules. I know I can't pull a Ninja Turtle twice. So I give you that power. I can't promise it'll work. But if one day you really need someone to show up, find Donatello and ask him: "What if I ask as a Ninja Turtle?" ## 2026-08-03 When I started this blog, I started a bit for myself. I hoped that some people would read it. But I also know it's not a mass market. But I did not think I would spend so much time on writing. So seeing a small traction on the website was a nice surprise. Nothing crazy, but a hundred views or so per day. But again I am struggling writing on AI because it truly is a complex topic, my longest page to date and I wonder: is anyone really reading? So it is not "click on the like button" but I hope there will be some guest page message, one day. This site is my place. But to become a place, a couple dozen people reading would really be nice. Now, it is not like people should read or anything. It's not a rant. But I am about a month in making that site and there is the "OK, I did it, that was cool - pat on the head" vs "this is my site, something that is part of me". ## 2026-08-02 I wrote some stuff on [generations](?p=genz.md). It is an honest take. I offer an experience across continents, decades. But I don't know well your specifics. That's the honest result. ## 2026-08-01 I wrote some stuff about [pinballs](?p=pinball.md). I often think of pinballs. It is because of a book I have never read, "Pinball, 1973". It is the first book in a loose trilogy Murakami Haruki wrote. It was not translated at the time, so I had to read it in Japanese. That was a big goal for me. I ended up able to speak Japanese fluently. But I can't take pleasure reading in Japanese. The pleasure comes from imagination, not from somehow understanding each sentence. ## 2026-07-30 35℃, 60% humidity. Fine. Big thunder. Fine. Enormous hail falling? I say no! ![hail](logs/hail.jpg) ## 2026-07-27 I have a guest book! It looks like shit but it's mine. Or yours. Ours! I never had a guest book when I was a kid T_T ## 2026-07-26 I have been writing about AI. Why so serious? I added freaking IRC to this site. Boys, daddy's home! I asked why it was so hot. They said it's summer. I don't have time for next gen summers! ## 2026-07-25 I was watching a movie yesterday. No Time to Kill. And I just couldn't stop thinking: the actress can't act. That's trash, really. Especially in her native French. She delivers emotions like a teleprompter that had a bad night. So I looked her up. Aristocracy. Léa Hélène Seydoux-Fornier de Clausonne. You can't make that shit up. Her family owns one of the biggest French film producer and distributor, the oldest in the world, no less. Created in 1895. And another one founded at the same time that peaked at 50% market share. Worldwide. She learned English by spending a month in the US every year as a child. She dropped singing because breathing exercises were too difficult. People talk about nepotism. The child of. I hear you. But I tell you, this is the end game, so much wealth and time, so many connections that it can all be inherited, across centuries, military defeats, world wars, occupation and regime changes. That annoyed me. ## 2026-07-24 Trying to add a music player. It's a pain. I can't believe we are still there, global variables and no type safety. ## 2026-07-23 We had a concept with some friends at work : Termiday It is when you are convinced it is Friday, when you need it badly to be Friday... but it isn't. Today sure is a Termiday. ## 2026-07-20 I was browsing cheap bluray. It is wonderful, like taking the time, owning, watching. And here is that. ![Good, bad and ugly](bon_brute.gif) The French version of The Good, The Bad & The Ugly. Super cheap, $5.5. I click on the seller, Chinese name, on the Japanese store. They sell clothes, mostly leggings and socks. Sometimes it is all absurd. ## 2026-07-19 [Nirvana](?p=nirvana.md) is up! I trimmed down, I had to finish it once. I'll go back at it later. I have so many things to talk about now! ## 2026-07-18 Still writing nirvana... Ah, fuck. But that's cool. Have you ever tried to do something you can't do and found pleasure in it? That delays a bit smaller text. But my 0 followers will forgive me. ## 2026-07-16 Time flies. Who are you? So I was happy with the terminal topic. Practical demo, historical, hardware, with some movie references. I can't quite write the Nirvana topic. So I am like... Oh! I got to write about terminals! I call that creative laziness. ## 2026-07-13 ### I am a writer! No, I am not. I have rarely written except if it was mandatory. I like to read though. A lot. Well I used to at least. And I have a high opinion, not of myself, but of writing. I am currently writing "Nirvana" and it is a challenge. I am a bit ambitious on this one. I am spending time on style. ## 2026-07-12 The weekend is ending. ``` And now, the end is near And so I face the final curtain My friend, I'll say it clear I'll state my case, of which I'm certain I've lived a life that's full I traveled each and every highway And more, much more than this I did it my way ``` Did you know this song was a lyric patch for "Comme d'habitude"? ## 2026-07-10 404 ## 2026-07-09 I am a bit disappointed that nobody wrote in the guestbook. I know that there is no guestbook yet. But still! ## 2026-07-08 Really nice weather here. I am happy with how my website grows. It is slow but steady, it feels like in a month or so it will be interesting. I feel a bit ashamed by how simplistic the appearance is so I added one picture. Enjoy! ## 2026-07-07 Still sick but working. I like that I made this site. Lots of pages yesterday, it's kind of steady. The UI sucks a bit, but I am an engineer. ## 2026-07-06 I got a virus! No, a real one, I caught a cold. Well, sick day, baby! I'll write an encyclopedia here today. Or not. ## 2026-07-05 I decided to do the opposite of everyone, it seems. Incredible tech demos on neocities... That's cool. But not for me. This site will be mostly about writing. I always wanted to share some stuff. Maybe some people will read it! ## 2026-07-04 First entry in the Diary. Diary is a special word to me. In 1993 or so, we bought a Japanese megadrive because it was cheaper. And when you have the console running at 50hz, the Japanese game switch to English. Don't ask, the ROM decides. So we were playing Quackshot, an excellent game. But in a language we did not know. And we genuinely thought that "diary" meant "diarrhea". That's what makes this word special to me.